Dear diary,

Good morning blog, it is currently 3:21am on my un-updated clock(so it is actually 4:30). I am wide awake. My eyes feel dry, being stretched widely open. My hair is greasy and I am in my new jacket as well as my stripey boxers. The three bags of green tea has left me feeling fueled till now, it must also be those salted green peas I had a while back... 1am I'd say. My english notes for belonging for my first related text are nearly done. Just a few more techniques ^ ^. My related text is a film: Guess Who's Coming to Dinner, directed by Stanley Kramer in 1967. I am currently listening to a beautiful guitar composition called Romeo and Juliet...I'm guessing it's taken from a beautiful and melancholy scene in the movie. The music is evoking all sorts of feelings in me.
ONE)Sadness... as I realise that my life is ticking, I cannot be with everyone...always. ): Soo...to in order to prevent any feelings of regret, I will make every single minute of my life count. Every single day I spend with you will be a gift that I will cherish. Every second I spend with you is the greatest thing I could ever wish for. Friends? Family? I have been blessed to have these wonderful people around me, every relationship has changed me in some way... they have shaped me into the person I am today. (side note: this is starting to sound cheesy LOL like shit I find on tumblr hahaha)
Anyhow, these are my personal notes to my parents, as a sign of gratitude for having to put up with me:
dear mumzy: You have been such a great carer, guardian, best friend, best mother to me. You have always directed me onto the right track, your advice never falters or fails and I always try my best to follow your words because you have experienced everything I have faced and will face. Even though our adventures are quite different... our paths do meet occasionally. It's the small things you do that makes me feel...loved, like buying me Starburst lollies, or understanding me before I even mention the problem. For that I thank you.
dear daddy: You are my motivation. I appreciate all the care you have ever offered me. I love how you have trusted me, even though the trust meant that I have to meet a lot of expectations. (: I hope I can always bring a smile to your face..like how you make me smile. Even when you give me hugs and I start whining ...I'm not actually whining inside teehee. I know this is a bit personal, but I will keep trying to get you to quit smoking. I must. I know I can.
gosh. why is this song so depressing. Time check: 4:oo on the un-updated clock. Waking up at 6 o'clock real time.

TWO)happiness... as I realise how perfect this life really is. The connections I make aren't merely coincidental, I believe that fate is at play here and so is luck. I would gladly say that I am lucky to be given such supportive friends. The flaws in my life only make me stronger, I grow with each mistake I make and I am still growing... I finally appreciate the different aspects of my identity (: this might sound like a rant about what I portray as my skills) I love my artsy fartsy creativity^^, taste in food and my not so bad voice! my dream person to be: an all-rounded person, one who is good at nearly everything XD

Anyways, I have finished my notes for my first related text YAYYYYYY! Now I'm off to start dreaming... or go into a deep state of REM since I'm gonna sleep for only ...one hour WOW CRAZY LOL. BYEE! I LOVE THIS WORLDD!

me at 5am no make-up + greasy hair + new jacket :L